Change

I am a person who ordinarily does not like change in her life. I am usually content sitting by watching everybody else change and the world with it..But right now I am screaming for change!

I am getting tired of sitting in this house everyday all by myself, looking to strangers that I have never met to give me something that I can not have. I am tired of not being able to go to work.. I am tired of having this damn broken leg. I am tired of looking at these same walls I call home and have lived now for three years. I am tired of the relationship that I have with my husband. A relationship that is at times great but at the same time bores me. I am tired of waking up in the morning not feeling true happiness within my own heart and feeling like the world is passing by without me in it.. I am screaming at the top of my lungs "Let me out" "Give me the freedom to be me, the Angie that I so want to be" "stop holding me back" "Let me loose and run wild and explore myself"

What I fear the most is waking up ten years from now still not knowing who Angie is or wants to be.. These are things I should have done years ago but made poor mistakes with life and so now I reap what I have sewn. I am trying so desperately to figure out how to unravel the stitch in this thread to fix my course in life.